Why do i even bother to eat, it just makes me fat, you’re not going to like me when I’m fat. I feel so shit i just want to cover up my body when I’m with you because all i see is rolls. Its disgusting and we cant deny it. My face is ugly, why do i look like a 12 year old - even you said that:( its just so depressing and its nights like these i just curl up in bed and cry because i hate myself. I need you so much but being alive is killing me.
I love you baby, i know its going to kill me… But thats the point. Maybe i don’t belong here, lots of people would be better off without me anyway, including you. No one would miss me.